Away From The Sun

"Pull up the planks! Here, here, it is the beating of this hideous heart!" -Edgar Allan Poe. Genius.

I'm Steph. First of all, I'm 14 and I go to LMS in West Orange. This town, it's not too bad. I'm a teenager, but that doesn't mean I drink, smoke pot, or any of that. I probably am more mature than you think though, everyone tells me that once they really get to know me. I've probably written about 200 different about me's in the past year, shifting words around and editing until it was just right. Haha, it's kind of funny how I could give a crap lately. I mean, yeah, I have a facebook, I have a myspace. I just could care less what any of my "friends" on there read about me. If they really cared what I'm like, they would just hit the "Comment" or "Message" button and leave me a damn sentence or two to read. It's not like anything I say hasn't been said before. I don't even know why I made one of these. I really just need somewhere to spill my feelings to, since I hardly tell anyone ANYTHING anymore. Not that anyone will ever read it. (Nevermind, two of my best friends just told me they wanted the link - so if anything I have two viewers :D) Where do I even start? Lately my life has been pretty much just school, school, school, homework, projects, research papers, essays, open endeds, thinking about next year's honor classes, talking about them, worrying about them, trying to keep up all the good school work i'm doing...it's insane. I actually do care lately though. I like the satisfaction of doing good on quizzes, tests, all that jazz. My social life is starting to suck. It's going downhill, and I can't stop it. I suprised myself by not even being worried. I feel like I'm just losing more and more friends to West Orange High School. My "best friends" who go there, we hardly even talk anymore. I wonder what I will be like when I get there. I wonder if I'll change at all. Who knows. Changing the subject, I wonder what's up with my anger lately. It's been worse than ever o.O. I kind of know what may be the cause of it.. It's not like I'd ever tell anyone the completely true reasons, anyway. Nobody wants to hear me whine anymore about that. I'll just end this post for now, bye. - One more thing! The picture thats on this blog was taken by JESSICA PINTO on November 12, 2008 at my school's faculty vs. students soccer game. It was a pretty fun day, I must admit.