Monday, February 2, 2009

Crash and Burn

Sorry for writing too much. But I need to right now. I need to vent, since I have no one to talk to that actually cares. Maybe I should get a shrink or something? I'm like insane. I swear. I'm definitely in some kind of social slump. Who knows? Maybe in a few short months I'll be some sort of social outcast that no one will want to talk to. None of my friends talk to me. No one tells me anything. I'm just plain alone. Half a year ago everything was perfect. I had the perfect friends, the perfect boyfriend (well he was perfect at the time), and I was definitely having the perfect summer. Does perfect even exist? I'm learning now that it doesn't. I doubt things will ever be as good as they were just six short months ago. I didn't realize how great everything was back then until everything fell apart right infront of my face. I hate knowing theres nothing I can do to get everything back to the way it was. I want it back, I want it all back now..
Maybe I'm overreacting a little? Probably am. I'm just pissed. Going to bed, night.
A half hour later: I still go along with all that I said.
But, I'm better.
Music can make me feel better when I'm at my worst.
Who needs people? I'll always have my Ipod.
-And I do have friends, but!
If I keep acting like that (see above unbolded text)
I won't have any at all.
(:

5 comments:

  1. awh steph ):
    come to the highschoolll i miss you!

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  2. i wishhhh blah, and i miss you too!
    i feeel like i dont know you anymore!
    :/

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  3. youuuu alwayyys have meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
    [:

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  4. ohmygoodness! maybe your ipod will always be there, but mine is with mr klempt :p

    things will get betterr I promise!

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