Ain't Love Grand?

It's ranting time. So I've been thinking about this a lot lately. What if I never find love? Like, real, true, amazing, love? I know I'm only 14. But I think about it a lot. I also get really scared. Like how would I ever live without finding that person that I can love forever and is my very best friend? fjdskla;jfdskl;a. I see all my friends with guys, and they're lovestruck smiles thinking that they're totally in love. But I know I've felt something before that was more than they're feeling right now. Nobody understands that, though. It kills me. Like the couples in school that are like "I love you so much!" after the first day of going out, and then they break up the next day...then onto the next person. Same thing. I really wish some people understood that love is much more than they think it is. It actually hurts me to watch them together because of that. And then theres other people I know that go from guy to guy or girl to girl like clock work. It's like a game to them. I just realized that I'm much mature than most of these ignorant people I know. I can't stand it. But anyway. Thanks for listening. I needed to get that out.